We are all Empaths. Every human being is born with the ability to feel empathy to some degree … It is THE most basic of psychic gifts, and is the physical embodiment of our soul as we enter the physical world.
I’ll be honest – I used to claim to not like children … Even before having the ones who didn’t belong to me…
Then I realized that it was only because I didn’t understand them. At the heart of my issue was a deep-seeded fear of failure and a heaping dose of self-doubt. I was intimidated by them – my kids included – because they are small, uninhibited, chaotic balls of raw emotions – and *BONUS* they lack the physical developmental skills of clear and accurate communication! So, basically, I would be in the vicinity of a child and I would absorb their natural emotions – which were wrapped in frustration (due to the underdeveloped ability to communicate), and rolled in a fun, sticky layer of harsh and explosive FEELINGS — Seriously. Kids are fun-sized atomic bombs with shoddy wiring. Point blank.
Unaware of this highly sensitive intuitive “GIFT” of mine, I developed a very real sense of unworthiness (of the responsibility), inability to control my temper when triggered (classic short-fuse), and, you know, the high expectations of just remembering to feed them, bathe them, and keep them alive… Why? Because every plant I ever owned passed away within days of being in my care because I forgot to water them (and didn’t want them blocking my window. (*hangs head*) My gerbil, “Squeakers,” died because he choked on the wood chips in his cage (Really … what kind of GERBIL does that.) And last but not least – the goldfish I won at a school carnival LITERALLY JUMPED OUT OF THE TANK! (Who needs a suicidal fish anyway. Amiright?) So every living thing that was dependent on me died in very careless (on my part), and tragic (on their part) ways … Needless to say, I was not beating down doors and offering my baby-sitting services.
I repelled living things – it was obvious. My psyche used that against me, and when you consider that my own brother seemed to hate me since as far back as I can remember, and I was in the care of two over-achieving, super-steady, always predictable parents –> all signs pointed to the large, overhead, neon sign that spelled out “UNABLE” – with a handy blinking arrow pointing directly at me.
And all the above happened before I was 13 years old … Overthink much?? *sigh*
I was raised by some very by-the-book conservative Christians. Lovely people – very structured, very regimented, very particular about time, plans, and schedules – imagination was praised, but not rewarded, necessarily (which was not uncommon back then), and when it was clear that I did not fit into the public school system’s box, my parents placed me in a Christian school = which only proved to me how far they were willing to go to help me reach my potential. There weren’t many options to choose from then, and as a family of 4, they both needed to work. Boy did they work – hard – to provide the fundamental foundation for my brother and me, which is something I think we both fully respected and appreciated, yet managed to manifest in completely opposite ways.
Both were/are very faithful Christians … but, like so many other good people in the world – their beliefs, to my developing mind, seemed more fear-based than magical. I grew up under the whole “having the fear of God in your heart” concept. I have ALWAYS had a very hard time believing He (God) was an Authoritarian type, so selling that to myself and my own children has been borderline unsuccessful to say the least.
God is LOVE.
As a child, I associated the word “fear” with being scared, even though in biblical terms it means ‘respect’. Now that I’m an adult – I may KNOW and recognize that difference, but have really struggled to uproot it out of my subconscious … Until recently.
See, I voluntarily respect God because of how safe I feel in His love, not because I am afraid of what He’ll do to me if I step out of line. He is a fair and just Creator; patient, loving, and kind. He doesn’t give pop-quizzes; nor does He set us up to fail. He is the highest example of a leader in that He makes sure we are given the necessary training, equipment, and experience before sending us out to battle. We are in HIS army – fighting the good fight for the good of those who love him …
All souls are passing through this physical world on their way back to Heaven. We are sent here to do a job – we’re the seekers, the truth-tellers, the healers of the brokenhearted.
Understanding my purpose here gives me the strength I need to endure ridicule and the blow to my ego when people distance themselves from me. I have confidence because God has confidence in my abilities and my fortitude. As I keep my eyes and heart attuned to His leadership, negativity rolls off of me, and fades into the background, without it even tempting me to look backwards. People who leave – no matter what type of bond we had – have become transformed, in my mind, into exams from which God has deemed me exempt.
Guilt becomes the clear voice of darkness telling me that speaking MY truth – GOD’s truth – will hurt people who love me, and that REAL lightworkers are not supposed to hurt others. The bigger picture … My higher consciousness – God’s Voice – tells me that I am a human BEING, here to do a job, and that job is allowing God to work through me by BEING a living, breathing example of His TRUTH.
The key word here is *truth* – our purpose is not to ‘make it’ through this life. Our souls originated in Heaven, and have been sent here to ‘seek and save the lost’ on our way back to our Heavenly home. The reality is that we face the same temptations as Jesus did, but some souls lose their way and forget their purpose. They become shackled to the world; buried so deep that their souls’ lights cannot be seen to the unaware/unawakened eye. But WE know that the only thing that will save those that have been put in our paths is exemplifying the truth – Getting to the root of the person, and convicting the heart.
People can be offended, angered, aggressive, or hateful – that’s fine with me, as I know those are superficial FEELINGS that are masking their true emotions – frustration, embarrassment, and shame. It is not my job, nor my intention, to judge. I am on this earth to heal, not bandage; to accept, not accuse; and to embrace, not shun. I am simply breaking through the cold, unfertilized ground that has grown over their spirit. By pricking the heart, I am aerating the soul-soil – allowing emotions to flow out, around, and through like water, and letting God’s love light penetrate through, so that the seed of truth can be planted in the most fertile and welcoming environment possible.
The more cultivated the heart-land becomes, the stronger and deeper the roots will grow. This is why nurturing children to be their true selves is more important than making them behave, or developing their grades, athletic ability, or social standing … If we provide them with a well-maintained heartland they have a far better chance of embracing THEIR soul’s purpose here, than if we simply scrape the surface and stick some superficial values and opinions under some loose dust….
Had it not been for my unsuccessful attempts with plants, rodents, and fish, I wouldn’t have recognized the immense responsibility of being a mother.
Had it not been for my fear of failure, I wouldn’t have fully relished the satisfaction of each and every personal success I’ve experienced along my journey.
Had it not been for my parents stability, I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to fall, to learn, to feel the safety of their unconditional love.
Had it not been for my freedom to express myself as a child, I wouldn’t have followed my intuition when I felt the need to go against the grain.
Everything happens for a reason – there is no such thing as coincidence. I can now look back at my life and where I used to see struggle and darkness, I now see growth, love, and light.
Can you say the same thing? Are you where you are meant to be? Are you BEING of service to your fellow man, looking for those in need?
Or are you feeling trampled on, thrown around, taken advantage of, or victimized .. If that is the case, then you are one of the ones who need a hand. You need help uncovering your light and getting back on track to your soul’s purpose. If you feel like you’re a good person, but you’re full of worry, heartache, and sadness – it is because you have the right intentions, but have been buried by the negative energies that come from an out-of-tune perspective.
We’re all healers. It’s time to get back to work. ❤